Healing

Where to begin. There seems to be common "funk" (as Jim would call it) amongst some of us siblings. I feel fine one minute, then the next, ugh. Well, it's to be expected. Loosing someone that you love so much hurts. Even with the knowledge that we will be together again, it still leaves an empty void. Just the other day I thought I should call Mom and ask her opinion. Unfortunately, I can't.

Loosing Mom has made me take a deeper, stronger look at the way I treat people, the way I live my life, and the things I want to leave behind. I hope that my family, siblings, children, spouse all know how VERY much they mean to me. My siblings are my best friends. They have always been there for me. My children are inspiring to me. When I look at them, I think of how I want their lives to be better than mine. I try harder to be a better person. My spouse, what a wonderful (not perfect) person. He willing let my parents live with us for 5 months (appx). He would encourage me to take Mom and go for a ride or do something to spend time together. He has been there for me thru this mourning process. I am blessed to have such wonderful people in and sharing my life. I think as siblings we talk more and stay in tune with each other more than we did before.

I just started a new job with the Clark County School District. During this week of training I have realized what a blessing it has been for me to get this job. The District has been on a hiring freeze. That means no new employees hired. Yet I was hired the day of Mom's viewing (July 1). I believe that the Lord has been watching and taking care of our family.

Today Dad and I went to lunch. During lunch he told me he dreamed of Mom a couple nights ago. She was in the garden in Hurricane weeding and having a good time. She wasn't able to do this the last few years and it was something that she missed doing. Dad misses her tremendously. He tells me that almost every time we are together. Pray for him!!

God be with you til we meet again!!